Monday, 21 January 2008

self inflicted

I am tormenting myself over boy C.
Every time his little green light appears on messenger my guts contort.
I've checked his status on facebook three times today.
It's pathetic, I have no idea what to say to him.
I have no idea what to say to myself!

"girl- pull yourself together! what do you want with another bloke? aren't you in enough of a mess already? if you like him you should be happy that he's with a nice girl"

yes, probably something like that.

Papier mache is not cheering me up, and I'm too....pissed off? sad? frustrated? to be distracted by my nice audiobook. So he's stolen amulet of samarkand? I'm not sure if I care.

Look at me. Silly grumpy girl. I should count my blessings.
It's hard to be cheerful when I'm on a no chocolate no sex detox....

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